What brings me to my funk?
Hm, well… I’m an analytical person so of course I’m going to
decipher it and dig deep to the ROOT of the issue.
Let me begin with an analogy. I was talking to one of my
clients the other week and we were discussing chiropractors; she had shared the
experience she had with two completely different doctors both of which she
sought to treat her bad knee at the time. The first one she saw was great-
fixed her up and she was better the next day. However, as time went by the pain
arose in her knee again. She decided to see someone else and this particular
chiropractor spent a great amount of time trying to figure the actual cause of
the pain in her knee. Come to find out it had something to do with her liver.
Who would have thunk it!? So what am I trying to get at here? Well… the first
doctor only seemed to “bandage” her pain. That is a temporary fix. The second
doctor, on the other hand, spent time digging to the root of her problem in
which of hopes to cure her pain for good.
In life, it’s easy to let our emotions get the best of us.
We want to fix ourselves on our own, because we think we’ve got it covered.
However, that’s when we should humble ourselves and give our problems to God
because He ultimately knows what is in our best interest.
---“God through his Holy Spirit, now lives in you. He has
set up residence. You are his temple, the place he stays, and your life is now
a living sacrifice. Your life is no longer your own but has been given to him,
and that is why your life needs to be focused not on yourself but on the God you
live for”--- (from today’s devotional: Devotions for the God Girl, by Hayley
DiMarco)
I better not make a list out of the things which bring me
down but I will name the ultimate cause of my “funk”… and it’s simply that!
(being in a funk) As much as I would love to be happy ALL THE TIME, it’s just
not humanly possible. I feel I must be honest and real here. So, what gets me
the most is when I let insecurity affect me because number one: I’m such an
advocate for self-love, so when I’m tested and I feel I fail and fail knowing
God’s truth, then I become that much harder on myself. & number 2: I
thought I would never be faced with comparing myself with others ever again.
HAAA! Boy was I wrong. It is basically my single, most absolute worst struggle.
I will be delivered from this… I can’t go through life playing it safe…however,
I’ve got to know that no one can still my joy unless I let them. The control is
in my hands because I choose how I’m going to let what someone does or says
affect me. Just their being and looks alone can stir up these emotions-how
petty right?
Comparison can wreak havoc. Just learn to recognize it. STOP
doing it, and press repeat, baby because just with anything else, it’s going to
take more than just time. Practice and repetition is when you’ll start to
notice inward change. Outward change is easy, but until you believe it and live
it, you’ve still got some healing to do.
--I’m preaching to myself here so yes, I struggle with
positive affirmation, and feeling beautiful. This is honest me. “it’s a
journey” …remember?? day by day.
- “Comparing results from carnal mindedness and spiritual immaturity.”
- “Comparing ourselves negatively with others leads to contentment, discouragement and jealously.”
- “The best antidote for comparing is thankfulness for what we are and all that we have and trusting in the Lord's love and fairness.”
“For you created my
inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I
am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full
well.” –Psalm 139:13-14
Much love.
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